My Dream Boy~

How else can i say this..

Yeah, i admit that i am choosy when it comes to boyfriends

People always ask me the same question:

"Do you have a boyfriend? He must be handsome."

But when i said i don't have one, they'll reply:

"OMG why not? Seriously?"

-.-

Its like is it important for a girl like me in this age to have a BOYFRIEND?

Yeah, i do sometimes feel lonely and jealous of my friends who have a boyfriend or boyfriends..

Making me feel like totally unwanted by boys, of which i feel is true~

In the issue of me being choosy about boys..

Yeah, who doesn't want a perfect boyfriend? A handsome, tall and caring guy? Tell me who doesn't?

Yeah, i do really want one.. But is it easy to find one?

For me, I would wanna find someone as good looking as Jensen Ackles.

Beautiful eyes, sharp nose and a lovely smile with a dimple..

OMG dimples does make me melt over boys who have em

And this is the part of which i am being choosy..

My dream man must be tall, having a cute smile and fair skinned..

MUST BE

Seems wrong right?

I kept on giving advice to my friends about giving a guy a chance to have their love, but me, myself, is being very choosy in the same issue.

I haven't give any guy that don't have those qualities to flirt with me.

Sounds mean, but i just can't..

First of all, i am afraid of guys.

Just ask any friend of mine, how i would react if an unknown male approach me.

I WOULD RUN AWAY...

and i have a trusting issue, i cant easily trust people.

and i dont know, i guess i am afraid of rejection..

Boys, i know them..

I knew a lot of guys of which they are my friends

I know what they like, what they think..

n i know, most guys dont like me because i am tall, or in a guy's term: BIG

Yeah, n when a guy ask me out, i would say no.. 

I know i am wrong for not to get to know that guy first.

N not taking chances on him, because we cannot always get what we want right?

I guess i am just afraid of the date might be just a prank n i might get hurt, again.

But what can i say, i am a TAURUS..

the issue of trusting a person is important for us Taurus.

i do want a partner in life, but i am hard to find one

I am choosy and afraid at the same time.

Fell in love or as i can say: crush, towards my friends, happens to me all the time

But they r my friend, n it will be kept that way.

I guess i am just good as a friend for a guy, not more than that.

But i am okay

If i find the one, i will have him.

If i dont, then i will be faithful with my family for all my life and dedicate my life for them and for them only.